Tuesday, October 9, 2007
- 12:07:00 AM
today went to CP to study with jayson, jess, shir and tyng woei..meet around 11 plus..den go library study a while den go yoshinoya study awhile den when come out saw yong zheng and anthony..den together we go kopitiam eat..haha..didnt study much..just go there talk cock sing song play majiong..den after that..went to outside 7-eleven there and slack..jayson went to interchange to send qian hui home..after that he called me..saying that 'she' is in bus 156..upon hearing that..i just throw my bag, leaving it with anthony they all..and dash all the way to the busstop outside..lucky the bus still there..was thinking whether to board the bus.in the end..i board it..saw her with another girl seated together..so i just went to the back and take a seat..saw qian hui..den when the girl alighted..i change my seat and sit with her..glad that i can see her..have some tiny small conversation with her..den very soon..reached her bus stop..den alight..send her to her house there..den see her take lift go up and off i left..haix..am i doing the right thing? or am i stupid? for everything i do, she just doesn't seems to be touch or move..i'm really lost for word and action..my friends ask me to stop..but i tell myself that i must not..but now..i on the verge of giving up..and i cant hold on anymore..i msg her with the 3 words in..later she reply..'bla bla bla bla..leave me alone'..i stop msging her..so this is what i recieved after doing so much..is it fair? i'm just like a dumb idiot..but..what can i do? love is selfish and cannot be force..what need to go, has to go..and i know that i will soon let it go..after that..go back compass take bag and went home and sleep..
