seriously i need someone to free me. i dunno am i under stress or having depression. my temper get heat up very easily compared to last time! what is happening to me man! everything just seems crushing down on me! help me please. what you look outside of me is just an external view. but what is deep inside. no one knows. not even myself! i really lost man! i have everything that i want! but there is just this simple thing that is lack in! i dunno what is it. coz i'm finding it. or maybe i'm just thinking too much. life is justhisimple but yet so complicated. i'm really stress. i'm feeling that i'm a nail in everyone's eyes. and i'm feeling very outcast!! save me!! so went swimming just now from 6.30pm to 8.30pm. i'm feeling very relax and free from this world.! everything that are bothering me are gone.! the tranquil and quietness. i just love that feeling. how i wish i can just be like a fish and swim! with no worries.. how i wish to be like them.. how? __________? maybe? but what will happen to my family and friends? i'm really lost man. life is full of choices. one wrong choice may lead to a deadly consequences. can someone tell me what to do? i wish i cant bother anything! just lead a happy go lucky life style!
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Sunday, September 28, 2008
- 8:25:00 PM
THE HOUSE BUNNY!
after tuition went to AMK hub to watch midnight movie with alan tutor, edmund, victor and zhengda. took 159 there. watch the movie 'the house bunny' at 1125pm..haha.was nice la..=) end around 1am..den took cab to jalan kayu for prata!! all outing cost..sponsored by teacher!! haha..thanks!!haha.den after that cab home..=) reached home around 2am..later still for tuition at 9am! sian..haha.the show is very meaningful. if someone were to JUDGE someone ONLY by its looks..and to be with someone coz of its looks..when the looks or outer appearance are gone, everything will slowly disappear..they will leave you slowly and soon..you will be left with NOTHING! but if we were to understand and know someone in its inner beauty..when something happens...your family and true friends will always be there..coz they understand you..knows you well..and will be there for you..so we should really not judge someone by it appearance. outer beauty is one thing..but inner beauty is the thing..=) that's all..=]
SHE'S ME FAVOURITE CHARACTER IN THIS MOVIE!!
RUMER WILLIS as JOANNE!
so damn pretty right(to me la)!!!! hehehe.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
- 10:18:00 PM
FOODs + SONGs = MY life!
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
- 10:14:00 PM
i am the one. but.
i dunno why i dont feel the joy.
i'm trying hard.
but things are crushing me down.
everything.
Monday, September 22, 2008
- 5:39:00 PM
today wake up at 6.40am!! that's rather early for me coz today school starts at 8.15. but of course i got my reason la. so prepare myself and head to hougang.=] reached hougang mall around 7.30am. waited for her. den took train back. coz was helping her with her heavy and bulky art pieces..you see..i'm helpful..took LRT later.saw eric! haha.he damn sucker la..haha.keep smiling at me..haha.den walk to school. pass her back the art pieces and went to join my friends in the canteen..haha..den............MRS ANG CALL ME!! sian..haha.first catch my hair..coz looks like ultraman..den some more infron of 5 teacher and my form teacher!!! wa..peng man..den say something link to relationship..haha.peng again..saying that now i know how to 'kang chew' (hold hand in hokkien) liao ar..den i say no la..den MRS ANG say..nonono..i wont object!! hahaha..shocked man!! she agreed man..lols..den say hold a girl is okay..dun hold a guy ar. and so on so fore la..haha..den say i must study hard first..hahaha..but i never even get into a relationship man..just with a girl only den say is my girlfriend..and i also not that successful in wooing a girl man..so cant posibility is girlfriend what..i this kind no one will like one la..hahahahaha! quite funny la..haha. the rest of the day was okay..=] after school..went rivervale plaza for lunch and bought my favourite snack!!! whooohoooo!! haha..den take LRT back and home!=] today the mood was up and down..but overall, it was okay.=)
Sunday, September 21, 2008
- 7:33:00 PM
WATCH THIS!!!
damn nice
Friday, September 19, 2008
- 8:08:00 PM
today morning..nasir suddenly came and congrats me..haha.dunno why man..he just dun wanna tell me..den said that miss teng will tell me..but in the end..also never tell me..boo..haha.the rest on the days was okay..=] and after that..went home, changed and ready to go gym..waited for edmund..later triffany came to my house void deck to pass me the ticket for the gym..after that edmund, haziq and jasper came..so went to cp and took 372.meet benjamin at the bus stop and den walk to the sengkang recreational centre..=] had gym first den swimming..=] after that walked home and watch tv..that's all..=]
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
- 11:01:00 PM
today was quite a so-so day for me? went to school quite early..saw kwee ann..so walked to school together. after that was checking of marks. overall. i did inproved and my L1R4 is 14. L1R5 is 21..thanks to my humans.=) after was PE. had basketball, badminton, soccer, volleyball. haha! all rounders!next was english lesson..quite okay la. was doing math homework..den after that is math.. this math lesson spoilt my mood. come in den say..can your shut up! noisy like dunno what..forget liao..damn no mood to listen to lesson already..den recess..chinese..physic and humans..went home after that..den went koufu celebrate leslie birthday and went tuition..my overall results are:
english 55 C5,
chinese 74 A2,
math 80 A1,
DnT 77 A1,
science 55 C5
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humans 49 D7.
got to improve in science and humans..that's all
and..
happy 18th birthday leslie!
Monday, September 15, 2008
- 10:40:00 PM
back..i'm back..and i'm back with a good news! heeehaaaa!
my chem MCQ test today got 18/20!!! hahahahaha!
good improvement leh!! haha..hope my science distinction is on my way!!!=D
Sunday, September 14, 2008
- 1:33:00 AM
fourteen today.
1year7months.
the time has finally come.
i'm begining to let go.
it's fading away.
slowly.
slowly.
slowly.
Friday, September 12, 2008
- 10:23:00 PM
TODAY WENT GYMING AND SWIMMING!!! WHOOOHOOOO!!
GYM WAS FANTASTIC MAN!! HAHA. DO TILL HAND SHAKE MAN..LONG TIME NO THIS FEELING ALREADY!! AND MY MUSCLE LOOKS REALLY BIG WHEN I'M LIFTING THE WEIGHTS! BUT LOOKS DAMN SKINNY WHEN NOT LIFTING!! argh!!!! HAHAHA..COOL RIGHT? WENT SWIMMING LATER. TOK CAME MAN! COOL MAN! HAHA. BEFORE THAT I WENT TO HER HOUSE(HER SISTER WAS IN). HAHA. HER DOG VERY NICE LOR! AND VERY COMFORTABLE TO TOUCH!! HAHA. SWIMMING WAS FUN TOO! HAHA. I MANAGED TO HOLD BREATH FOR 1.11 MINUTES!!! yeah!!! GOOD ACHIEVEMENT! HAHA.EVEN THOUGH TO SOME IS VERY SHORT LA! HAHA. AFTER THAT RUSH TO COMPASS TO MEET SOMEONE..=)) HAHA. SUPPOSE TO SENT SOMETHING..BUT DID NOT COZ NO BATT..LOL..DEN CHAT A WHILE MAN..AFTER THAT CYCLE BACK WITH YANG TO 308 THERE FOR DINNER!! HAHAHA.. BACHOR MEE!!! DELICIOUS!! ^^ AFTER THAT PUT MY MEMORY CARD TO YANG PHONE AND EVERYTHING WENT missing!!!! KAO! TAKE LRT HOME..DEN QUICKLY GO OUT THE THINGS INSIDE COM AGAIN..DEN WENT TO CP HOPE CAN FIND SOMEONE..LOOK UP AND DOWN IN CP BUT SHE LEFT LE..SIAN.HAHA..SO WENT HOME LOR..THAT'S ALL MAN!! =0
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
- 8:24:00 PM
I love this part.
You were my strength when I was weak. You were my voice when I couldnt speak. You were my eyes when I couldnt see. You saw the best there was in me. Lifted me up when I couldnt reach. You gave me faith coz you believed.
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BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
Ill be forever thankful baby
Youre the one who held me up
Never let me fall
Youre the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldnt speak
You were my eyes when I couldnt see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldnt reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
Im everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
Im grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldnt speak
You were my eyes when I couldnt see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldnt reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
Im everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
Youve been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldnt speak
You were my eyes when I couldnt see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldnt reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
Im everything I am
Because you loved me
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldnt speak
You were my eyes when I couldnt see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldnt reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
Im everything I am
Because you loved me
Im everything I am
Because you loved me
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Monday, September 8, 2008
- 7:52:00 PM
here are my prelims result!! enjoy man..
english-C5
math-A1
chinese-A2
science(chem/phys)-C6
humans-D7
Dnt-A1
L1R2B2-15
L1R5-22
still far far away from my target man..
gonna work double hard now..
jiayou man!
one good news!!
my chinese compo for prelim was being sent to the compo competition man!!
